digiral

"Frzsta" means hello in my language. Yeah, back then when I was in Elementary School, I made some strange symbols that's work like alphabets. Until now, I still remember those symbols and now I want to make a language of it. I would call it alpha symbols since I was a fans of word alpha back then. Maybe I will distributed it to internet, but if I remember correctly, I had promised to my self not to tell it to others unless it's well trusted person. Though, I had spoiled the transcript of alpha symbol to some people on internet and they think I'm stupid to use these kind of symbols. I don't know... I think it's kind of cool since you can write anything in a symbol that only you can understand and make other people confused.

Anyway, I just want to say that I'm still alive after all of this hiatus... Uh... when was my last post again? 25th December? huh, not my best, I guess...

I wrote this diary because it's almost my birthday and I need to tell you guys, kind of request actually... is it polite though? uh... I don't know... But, you see, the last birthday is really sad... I really like... cried inside terribly... I even made a comic about it link. It was really hurt, especially when my own parents did forget about it. *sigh* (Oh yeah, I was on 30 days no Facebook back then, that's why it felt really lonely).

I...
I don't why I wrote this journal again... 
Some character like Euler Lovata in my mind is telling me to write a journal about my birthday, but I really don't know what to say.
Umm... help me? nah, I think it's too much...
Hmmm... I'm not good with languages so I really don't know what to say... It's hard to put it in words...

Do me a favor, please. I need you all surprise to make my birthday better than before... I don't want to lost in another depression
Uh... I'm not really that depressed though if my birthday isn't celebrated because I already passed through a lot of bad birthday memories.
Usually I cheer myself by giving my drawing as present to someone who have birthday. I'm really happy to see others happy in their birthdays, not like mine...

But then again... I think I'm asking too much from you all. I mean, I already used to it...
hmmm....
Don't give present or surprise if you guys have a burden to it. I don't want to cause a trouble.
oh yeah, never draw Euler Lovata since she doesn't like to be drawn except me.
and uh... um... oh yeah
Thanks for reading this journal



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When the hiatus break?

Maybe after I really passed all of school stuff

294 watchers already ?
Well, what should I prepare for 300 watchers celebration?
Continue The Digiral Comic ?
Start Wapzos's adventure ?
or maybe just continue drawing the converstation between Euler Lovata and me?
Wait, how about.... umm... I think I can't... but well, since it's almost school holiday for me, Doing free sketch requests ? (for limited number of course, terms and conditions may apply)

Okay... My situation is something that can't be fixed...
Because what ?
Because Time.
Yes, Time.
When the deadline is near and you felt regret because you didn't do the thing before. Now you must do a crap quality thing with a fact that you actually can made the best quality if you used the time good enough ... That's my situation...
And, I have a new hole in my life. There's a lot of holes now meaning I throw away my good possibilities in the future.

Okay... Umm.... I don't know why I got in this tangled situation, but for you out there, yes, you who is reading this journal. Please, use your time effectively! PLEASE! Don't be like me who can't use the time good enough.

Time is a sensitive matter. But if you can flow in it without any procrastinate and just FLOW, do everything you must done and not making trouble, then Time is in your side. I will be so envy for people who can use time good enough, because I really wanted that kind of power.

REMEMBER! This is the most important fact! You can't rewind the time because time only goes one way.

Everything in your life is a moment, and it's not about YOLO things, it's about making a lot of good possibilities in future. You will make no regret then.

For now, I'm thinking how to patch the holes and how to get back my good possibilities.... If I can... hopefully  

Wait, I forgot to tell how to used time effectively...
Just make priority list. You don't need to write it or draw it. Just make the priority things. Do the job with higher priority, not with what you want to do.

Uh.... Testing 1 2 3, what year is it again ?
How long since the last upload again ?

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Ouch....
I did a lot of hiatus in 2015.

BUT! Afraid not, because this year is year of self control! YES! SELF CONTROL!
I learned in 2015 that I still can't control myself. I can't control my schedule when it is time to play games and study.
So, with effort, I will try to post art in here again! Persistently!
Make it.... 2 arts in 1 week, that's the minimum!

The truth is...
I actually.... draw everyday but I don't submit them here....
I always afraid of my drawing qualities... I always afraid they are not good enough to be submitted...
But then... If I keep be like that, I won't able to improve quickly as other pro artist...
I miss being like 2 years ago, have courage to submit art without any thinking of qualities, and doesn't mind about grammars...

So yeah, expect me to be active again...

I will start with the profile description!

and then, I will try to upload good art in 2015 and draw for good at the same time.

I will try to understand more about artist world.

I will try to understand how dA actually works too.

But make it baby step because I still have school business..

Anyone miss me ? I just got back from business of school
Now, I have finished my mid term test and it's break time for 3 days.
I already did a lot of drawings, but.... uploading all of them one by one on single day will be suck, so yeah, I think I will just post proportionally in these 3 days.

Uh....
I missed so much thing, didn't I ?
Tell me, what's going on around dA please :d